I think every ministry leader I know has thought the same. God calls us to action and we are left wondering about how the finances are going to come in, whether or not volunteers are going to show up, and/or any other fear the enemy throws our way unique to the task at hand.
The only goals I really had were to have fun and party. I was so self-centered, so near-sighted, not at all thinking about my future or taking life seriously. I would skip school, fall asleep in class or go to school stoned out of my mind at times. Somehow, though, I managed to graduate on time with my class.